🌲EᒪᒪIE, ᗩTᒪᗩᔕ, & ᗩᔕᑭEᑎ 🌲

1 month ago

"People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain."
↠Jim Morrison
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My mind has been overtaking my body lately. I'll be hit or miss with my daily posts because of this. I ached so much today, and cried so hard I almost vomited. And hiding it from everyone else is something I've become so good at. I don't like attention; it increases my anxiety, and society becomes so uncomfortable talking about depression. These last few weeks have really taken a toll on my mind & body due to various things, and I truthfully was battling some of the darkest thoughts I've had since high school.
All three pups came running over as soon as my breakdown started. Atlas stayed close, while Ellie curled up next to me, being sure to be touching me, and Aspen pushed his head into my lap and refused to move even when I tried to push them all away. And now Ellie refuses to leave my side, even hours after my breakdown, when she would normally be curled up in her kennel. These dogs continue to be my saving grace both in easing me out of my breakdowns, and also reminding me that it's ok to fall apart, because I WILL be ok; it might just take longer than I'd like, but I'll make it out one way or another.

"People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain." ↠Jim Morrison . My mind has been overtaking my body lately. I'll be hit or miss with my daily posts because of this. I ached so much today, and cried so hard I almost vomited. And hiding it from everyone else is something I've become so good at. I don't like attention; it increases my anxiety, and society becomes so uncomfortable talking about depression. These last few weeks have really taken a toll on my mind & body due to various things, and I truthfully was battling some of the darkest thoughts I've had since high school. All three pups came running over as soon as my breakdown started. Atlas stayed close, while Ellie curled up next to me, being sure to be touching me, and Aspen pushed his head into my lap and refused to move even when I tried to push them all away. And now Ellie refuses to leave my side, even hours after my breakdown, when she would normally be curled up in her kennel. These dogs continue to be my saving grace both in easing me out of my breakdowns, and also reminding me that it's ok to fall apart, because I WILL be ok; it might just take longer than I'd like, but I'll make it out one way or another.

39 Comments

mrs.portugal

mrs.portugal

❤️

1 month ago

kar.ina.n

kar.ina.n

💝

1 month ago

veeralo

veeralo

❤️

1 month ago

ninaschmuck

1 month ago

dillinger_thesablegsd

dillinger_thesablegsd

Beautiful 😍😍

1 month ago

explorewithkyra

1 month ago

jenheartsdogs

jenheartsdogs

I'm so glad you have these wonderful beings with you - it sounds like they're incredibly intuitive, and caring of course. I'm sorry to hear you've been suffering - I can sympathise with your experiences. I won't 100% promise, but I strongly believe that this will ***** and a time will come where things are easier. I'm unsure if you've reached out for help, but I firmly believe it's the best thing you can ever do for yourself - when I have reached breaking point, it's scary to let someone else in, but it's the biggest relief. I hope things pick up for you, no one deserves to be held prisoner by their own mind. Sending lots of love 💕💕💕 PS this photo is absolutely gorgeous!

1 month ago

cycscalz

cycscalz

Loving thoughts to you

1 month ago

niblet143

niblet143

I also suffer from depression and anxiety. I also have diabetes and broke my ankle 3 years ago. My point to telling you all of this is I have emotional, mental, and physical pain everyday. If you ever need someone to talk to please DM me. I may not have the right words to make you feel better but I can definitely listen and let you know you're not alone.

1 month ago

artewilbert

artewilbert

Beautiful

1 month ago

siberianblitzky

siberianblitzky

I'm sorry you are having to deal with these struggles. I'm glad you have the dogs to remind you how loved you are. ❤️

1 month ago

fetchinfocus

fetchinfocus

So glad to hear your pups are there for you when you need them most. Sorry you’re going through a tough time, and hopefully with time and a good support system, like pups are already, things will look up.

1 month ago

zippypaws

zippypaws

So sorry to hear that you’re going through a tough time right now. You’re surrounded by such loving pups and we’re so glad they’re there for you. ❤️

1 month ago

tessa_the_irish_setter

tessa_the_irish_setter

This is amazing! I always try to find planes like this when I hike! I have some peaks on my page as well. Love the lighting of this one too

1 month ago

domesticdoggos

domesticdoggos

Grateful for your ability to show vulnerability!

1 month ago

laubenthalpuppies

1 month ago

kayuh.the.husky

kayuh.the.husky

❤❤❤

1 month ago

howlinghikers

howlinghikers

Keep feeling. Keep going. Keep living. ❤️You encourage others to be brave and transparent.

1 month ago

lunaxel1971

lunaxel1971

Hermosos!!!😘😘😘

24 days ago

ashleylodmell

ashleylodmell

@ellmartin this is goals

15 days ago

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