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Tag 2: Ich bin seit gestern Abend raus aus der Isolation, da der Corona Test negativ war✌🏼☺️ Bisher bin ich die einige auf der Station echt komische diese leere hier.. Heute war therapeutische Aufnahme, echt anstrengend aber ich glaube die Zusammenarbeit wird gut!☺️ #schönklinikbadbramstedt #schönklinik #exhausted #anxiety #bpd #borderline #ana #anarecovery #ed #edrecovery #transformation #ptbs #ptsd #sk

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Okay so I tried to make pancakes today and kinda failed. It’s okay food doesnt have to be perfect. I was so shaky and nervous while I made them and most if them broke but That’s okay. The important thing is that they were edible and really good so so what if they aren’t exactly picture perfect. Food is food🐝

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Health class teachers: please be aware that the nutrition and fitness portion of your class should not be demonizing foods nor elevating certain weights, while labeling others as “unhealthy.” It causes actual physical, mental and emotional harm. . Also! The documentaries out there that do the above are inappropriate for children of this age and so often result with the child cutting out the demonized food group on their own without any support or guidance to ensure adequate nutrition. . How many of you adults out there have known somebody or have been somebody who changed their diet based on a documentary? 🙋🏻‍♀️ . Giving this type of fear-mongering bias to a child is, in my opinion, unethical due to the danger that can unfold. . Let’s please stop! . #eatbravely #monadnocknutritionservices #dietculture #dietculturedropout #antidietdietitian #haes #intuitiveeating #edrecovery #nourishnotpunish #riotsnotdiets #allbodiesaregoodbodies #bodypositive #bodyrespect #effyourbeautystandards #eatingdisorderrecovery #selflove #endfatphobia #endweightstigma #fatpositive #fatpositivedietitian #bodypositivity #foodpeace #empowerallbodies #bodyacceptance #bodytrust #foodfreedom #bodykindness #lifebeyonddieting #wakeupweightwatchers #weightneutral

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ITS MY BIRTHDAY 🥳 due to working today bae went a pulled a blinder this weekend throwing me a little lockdown afternoon tea party complete with flowers, balloons, champers, chocolate strawberries and copious amounts of cake including these beautiful yoga themed cupcakes from @charlotte.cupcakesstockport - he’s a true hero 🦸🏽‍♂️🧁 . . . ➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖➖ #lockdownbirthday #afternoonteaathome #cupcakes #birthdaycupcakes #treattime #cake #chocolatecake #chocolate #peanutbutter #caramel #saltedcaramel #whitechocolate #instafood #collaboration #instafoodie #foodie #edrecovery #recovery #hungry #yummy #feedfeed #cheatmeal

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I literally refuse to feel shit about my body. I used to hate my thighs. But now I think of them as two, hard working, beautiful girls 👯‍♀️ keeping me up right and getting me from place to place 💪🦵🚲 . They have put up with a lot of shit from me, but no more! Now I am grateful and loving towards my thighs and know that they are perfect 👌 💋 • • • #riotsbeforediets #mybodyisperfect #idratherspendmytimeenjoyingmylifethanworryingaboutmyweight #edrecovery

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🌻 lᏌᏁᏣᏂ 🌻 . • stuffed bell peppers with buckwheat 🌾, turkey mince 🍗 . • greek yogurt with garlic , dill 🥛 . . . Tried stuffed peppers with buckwheat and it waa delish! But prefer ot woth rice tho😋 #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecoveryfood #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiarecovery #edrecoverywarrior #edrecovery #healthymeals #healthylunch #healthy #lunchideas #foodphotography #foodporn #foodblog #foodjournal #fdoe #whatieatinaday #recover #recovery #turkey #stuffedbellpeppers #veggies #nutritious

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Middach. (Reste essen... ;) ) #edrecovery #edfighter #beatingeatingdisorders #vegetarianfood

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🍦JUST OUT HERE ENJOYING ALL OF SUMMER🍦 . #edrecovery #mentalhealthawareness

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This is a #lunch when youre in a hurry and don’t know what te eat! Two cheese toasties with salami! A bit challenging, but I know it’s what my body needs!!💗 Keep fighting!💪🏼• Detta var en väldigt snabb lunch! Nu ska jag ha möte på bup, ganska nervös faktiskt då det är med min dietist också, men det kommer nog gå bra! Vad ska ni göra idag?❤️ #minniemaud #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiarecover #ed #edrecovery #allin #warrior

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Cheesy ham & tomato omelette with baked beans 🤤 *********************************************** --------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------------------------------------------------------------------------- #wwdiet #wwgreenplan #wwgreenteam #wwlifestyle #wwplan #wwpregnancy #wwmeals #pregnancyfood #weightwatchers #wwmealideas #caloriedeficit #wwukmums #pregnancyweightloss #weightwatchersuk #weightwatchersfamily #edrecovery #wwgreenplanuk #wwuk #wwukfamily #wwuksupport #edrecovering #wwukonline #wwonlinemember #wwonlineuk #wwrecipes #wwgreenrecipes #bingeeating #eatingdisorder #wwmum

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First thing ➡️ After food, training and lots of water. I remember once upon a time when I'd avoid eating for fear of this happening, I'd weigh myself after every tiny meal I had knowing full well that with food in me I'd be heavier. I told myself it wasn't normal and none of the girls I saw online or on TV had it. Let me tell you. It is the most normal thing ever to not have a flat tummy, especially after food, water, training or females especially if you have your period. It wasn't until I educated myself more that I became aware of these things. If you're struggling I'd like to help you. Drop me a message and look out for my announcement this evening 💓 . . . #personaltrainer #puregym #puregymofficial #edrecovery #recovery #bodypositivity #uk #selfcare #selfcompassion #fitness #beat #edawareness #bodyimage #health #lockdown

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🗓 26 mai 2020 - 12h28 Bonjour 🤗 Comment allez vous ? Pour ma part je suis mitigée ! J’ai beaucoup de choses à raconter 🙃 Tout d’abord hier j’étais très mal par rapport à une embrouille avec ma mère qui ne s’est pas arrangée. Après ça un ami à moi est venu pour la soirée et finalement il a dormi chez moi 😨 j’étais perturbée et angoissée par rapport aux repas et aux changements d’habitudes mais finalement ça s’est plutôt bien passé 😊 j’ai vraiment beaucoup de mal à manger ces derniers temps et pourtant je veux réussir à manger mais c’est super dur 😥 j’arrive même pas à toucher la nourriture 😔 Concernant l’embrouille avec ma mère j’avoue que ça m’a rendu super triste et encore là je suis très déçue et je me sens impuissante 😔 tout m’échappe et je n’arrive plus à rien maintenir stable😔 Ce midi j’essaie de manger avec une petite soupe 🥣 j’espère que je vais réussir à la garder ! Je vais travailler mes cours toute la journée en tout cas je vous souhaite une belle journée ❤️ #anorexierecovery #anorexianevosa #anorexiefighter #anorexia #anorexie #anafighter #anafight #edrecovery #edfighter #eatingdisorder #ed #nevergiveup #fighter #fight

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Rough couple of months. Ups and downs, mostly downs. But I’m still here, still alive, still fighting. 🥊 #edrecovery #oatmeal #fighter #fighting #eatingdisorderrecovery #positive #confidence #oatmeal #anarecovery #bedrecovery #warrior #alive

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Pêut-être je me plein trop mais je veux partager mes émotions avec vous comme je me sens etc.. L'anorexie c'est la plus grosse merde À chaque fois quand je regarde mon corps j'ai des larmes aux yeux.. Je veux plus vivre comme ça c'est épuisant mais le combat c'est connecté avec la Vie.. 😟 #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #edrecovery

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🌿 Crumbly, crunchy, bran rusks — a South African breakfast and tea time staple. Baked these to induce nostalgia, of times when it was “normal” and exciting to travel.⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ 🌿 Food is nostalgic, and it can trigger memories and feelings rooted in past experiences. What foods are nostalgic for you?! Comment below ⬇️⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ .⁠⠀ #haes #intuitiveeating #edrecovery #antidietproject #antidiet #riotsnotdiets #effyourbeautystandards #losehatenotweight #lifebeyonddieting #thelifethief #selfcarenotselfcontrol #balancednotclean #foodisfuel #prorecovery #bodyposi #bodypositive #bopo #feminism #healthateverysize #nourishnotpunish #disorderedeating #eatingdisorder #food #snacks #baking #bakingsnacks #yummy #tuesdaythoughts

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Challenge 21: Chocolate (minstrals) Please sponsor me! https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/ruths-26-challenge1729 #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery # #edwarrior

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gooood morning my lovelies 👋🏼 bit of a late post cus my insta has been playing up allllll bloody morn 🙄 but better late than never, plus today’s brekky bowl was an absolute WINNER so it would’ve been rude not to share hehe . 🍌 oats made with almond milk, mashed banana and a scoop of @myproteinuk speculoos impact whey (this flavour is 10/10 imo) 🤩 . 🍓 topped with strawberries, banana, mixed seeds, chopped nuts, flaked almonds, 2 chunks of cadbury’s raspberry shortcake choc, a biscoff biscuit and drizzle of biscoff sauce to finish! . SO good 😍🤤 have a fab day x

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As an exercise pro recovering from disordered eating + other compulsions I've had shame about the long periods over the last few years where I just could NOT exercise regularly. Where the next right step on my journey was to NOT exercise. And ohhhhhhh... how confusing + conflicting this has been for me as a fitness pro. All I can say is I've felt shame and frustration about the repulsion and fear I had around exercise. But the shame wasn't stronger than the feeling of being at the precipice of a slippery slope I just wasn't willing to risk anymore. So I've tried to quietly share over the past few years that I sometimes need "breaks" from structured exercise. How I have to approach exercise from all sides each day + week to decide what is right for me in order to take the wheel back from my disorder. And you've DMd me + commented. You've said: "OMG me too, and I never realized it was just part of the journey." Living with trauma - birth trauma, childhood trauma, trauma from loss, whatever it might be - makes us seek shelter. We numb with eating disorders, obsessions and addictions to protect our poor hearts from our sharp, pointy brains. And structured eating + exercise programs can feel like poking those old wounds. But PLAY. Play is always there for me. When I leave my brain at home and bike, walk, hike, swim and dance I feel whole. When I sling my weights around and don't stress about "performing" I feel whole. When I stretch because it feels soooo good, I feel whole. SO. If you find yourself approaching exercise like a mousetrap, checking out the angles... Maybe what you need is NOT to work out. Maybe you need time without exercise to pursue therapy, relationships + other self-care. Maybe if you want to move, what you need is to play. To cartwheel. Stretch. Dance. Bike. Wrestle. To reconnect your brain + body in the ways you once knew: in joy, in light, in fun. Maybe NOT "working out" is the best next step for you some days or weeks. It has been for me. Now I feel clear about whether I need play or exercise from day to day. And I can continue on my path, shame-free and feeling more well than I have in a long time. xo-D. #mombodlove

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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #Dinner ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ...I feel weird at the moment 🤔 I try to eat without thinking too much about it, but to be honest there is not much that I crave at the moment. I feel sad and miss meeting friends, but the problem is, that I’ve pushed away nearly all of my friends (except my best friend, but she’s pretty busy), so there is no one left to meet... 😔 Loneliness hit me hard today... —————————————————— Anyway. My dinner yesterday was some #breaded #chicken with #lettuce 🍗🥗 We call it “ #Pariser #Schnitzel” in austria 🇦🇹 I really love it, but it wasn’t as satisfying as I thought it would be... ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #ana #recovery #recovering #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexiabattle #bulimiarecovery #ednos #edwarrior #edbattle #fearfood #fearfoodrecovery #recoverymeal #es #essstörung

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-Treatment- Starting treatment willingly is a difficult thing, which I haven’t experienced, for I only went by force. It may feel like giving up to be in a program whether by choice or not, but it’s finally standing up for yourself. It’s picking your life over a misery run by ED. Treatment must be done honestly. The therapists can tell if you’re faking it, but despite how they want to, and they do, they cannot force you to recover. It is a choice that you alone must make for yourself. You can to recovery for external factors, like for family and friends, but it won’t last unless you’re doing it for yourself because at the end of the day it is still your life. I tried to recover for my mom and my mom only at one point and it never lasted. Because ED is a selfish disease and eventually I stopped caring for others and my only motivation disappeared. And thus, I gave into my eating disorder. Treatment isn’t easy, but it’s worth it. There’s so much you can learn about yourself and others throughout the process and you can grow as the best version of yourself. A person who knows their worth and can respect themselves as they deserve to be respected. You are worthy of treatment and you are worthy of the growth and wonderful life treatment can provide. #edrecovery #positivity #recovery

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had breakfast in the garden while reading one of the best books i've ever read!🍄🌿☀️ • • • • • • • • • #reading #aesthetic #edrecoveryaccount #edrecovery #yoghurt #breakfast #sun #nature #outside

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Dette billede er fra en af de værste perioder i mit liv. Jeg var indlagt på psyk efter selvmordsforsøg og havde fast vagt. Jeg var blevet kørt derhen med tvang og politi. Tror at jeg det år var indlagt flere gange end hvad der kan tælles på to hænder. Jeg tabte sågar mit hår pga. At jeg havde det så skidt psykisk - det er derfor at jeg på billedet, havde små strithår på siderne af mit hoved😅. Men hey, se mig lige nu - jeg er nået så langt, selvom jeg stadig har det svært♥️🤗 #psykisksyg #psykiskhelse #fighter #fight #goal #serfremad #pige #kvinde #dk #denmark #danmark #skizofreni #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recover #skizofreni #skizofrenia #mentalhealth #personlighedsforstyrrelse #anoreksi #bulimi #selvskade #cutting #win #foredrag #foredragsholder #forfatter #sind #enafos #sindfrivillig

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Das war mein snack zum Mittag gestern. Meine erste Apfeltasche jemals😅😍war echt gut. Trotz das essen gut lief war es doch wieder zu wenig (minimum 2500 wegen Sport etc und guter Stoffwechsel). Und da ich wirklich gesund werden will werd ich mich jetzt wirklich bemühen das durchzuziehen. Heute gibt es minimum 3000. Ich will gesund werden, wieder lachen können etc. So schneller ich meine Hormone wieder bekomme so besser deswegen genieße ich jetzt mein zweites Frühstück 😇. Schönen Tag euch

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"Look up, now look down. Up is endless. Down has an ending. Always look up." - Mod Sun . . I love this quote. I had to Google who this rapper was though. He any good? 😆 . . . #halflotus #halflotuspose #yogashapes #yogafun #modsun #modsunquotes #atxfit #atxyogis #yogini #yogagram #edrecovery #strongnotskinny #yogaeverydamnday #yogaathome #yogaaddict #atxvegans #yoginiofig #veganyogini #ardhapadmasana #momswhoyoga #fitflexyfolk #flexible #tattoedyogi #lookup #staypositive #blondebalayage #yogalove #padmasana

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We cannot protect others from our own self loathing. Speaking negatively about ourselves can feel self protective, if we hurt ourselves before someone else can hurt, maybe it will be less painful. Although, doing that not only causes destruction to ourselves, it also can pass on dangerous, toxic messages to the ones we love and our communities. We get it, there are A LOT of reasons why self acceptance, body neutrality, or kind self talk, is difficult. Educating yourself on these reasons can be an amazing step toward freeing up your mind from the relentless inner critic. Join our digital course so that, together, we can walk through the systems at play that keep us hating ourselves. In the 4 month course, we hear from experts in the field, read and discuss 4 different books, and complete the body project training. Interested? Fill out the question form, LINK IN BIO, to get your questions answered! #theeverybodyisbeautifulproject #allbodiesaregoodbodies #healing #wellness #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #recoverywarriors #recoveryisworthit #realrecovery #bodypositive #bodypositivity #bodyacceptance #bodyimage #bodyrespect #fatpositive #fatpositivity #antidiet #nondiet #intuitiveeating #eatingintuitively #screwdietculture #screwdiets

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I've been an embodiment teacher for a long time but I realize most of us don't know what this word means as we are not encouraged to know what it means. In recovery from any form of disordered eating/body image issues, embodiment needs to be central. You need to learn what this words FEELS like within. The Befriending Your Body (BFYB) Program teaches you all about what it feels to come back home to your body and embody it, not just "recover it."⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ #befriendingyourbody #selfcompassion #awareness #embodiment #edrecovery #disorderedeating #selfcare #onlinerecoveryprogram #eatingdisorderrecovery #somaticpsychotherapy #bodylistening #bodytrust #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #bingeeatingdisorderrecovery #somaticawareness

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At SWEDA, our vision is to support everyone affected by eating disorders across Somerset and Wessex. We #engage with people affected by eating disorders, including family, friends and carers, by offering hope and enabling access to support services to empower recovery 💙💖💚 . . . . . . . #bodypositivity #bodypositive #selflove #loveyourself #selfcare #loveyourbody #love #motivation #mentalhealth #bodyacceptance #edrecovery #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #eatingdisorder #mentalhealth #anarecovery #bulimiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #recoveryispossible #ed #bulimia #recoveryisworthit #mentalhealthawareness #anorexiafighter #befriendyourbody #bhfyp

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12 weeks clean and sober 🙌🏻 . I was going to post a posed picture from the other day but my reality right now is that I've had a couple hours sleep after being up comforting my 9 year old until 3am and then up at 7 cause kids apparently aren't bothered by lack of sleep 😅 . So here's a picture of me sitting out the back, bed head game strong, still in yesterday's top, a cup of green tea in hand and soaking up the sun 🌞 going up the mountain later ⛰️ . Much like being a parent, sobriety isn't always easy. But it's ALWAYS worth it. . Despite the lack of sleep, I feel happy and grateful. Today is going to be a good day. 💛 . . . #12weeks #sober #soberasfuck #recovery #NA #AA #narcoticsanonymous #alcoholicsanonymous #edrecovery #selflove #spoonie #chronicillness #ireland #poweredbyplants #girlswithtattoos #girlswithpiercings #altgirl #tattoos #nofilter #bedhead #cleanandsober #selfie #grateful #love #summer #sunshine #highonlife #justfortoday #wedorecover #recoveryispossible

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•𝓯𝓲𝔁𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 𝓸𝓷 𝔀𝓮𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓼𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓮• within your eating disorder, of course, their is a massive fixation around your weight and shape. one thing i’ve came to realise recently, and was only talking about last night, nobody is going to remember you for your weight or shape, nobody is going to say at your funeral ‘oh she weighed ‘xkg’, nobody is going to say at your funeral ‘she was built like x’ nobody is. they’re going to remember you for the person YOU ARE. your personality, your smile, the memories you have with that person, who YOU ARE. your weight isn’t your worth, it really isn’t. life is only short, don’t let your ed waste more time of your short precious life. cherish moments with family & friends, live in the moment. just try to remember your weight is never ever your worth. ❤️ - - my ed was trying to convince me last night not to have this KitKat alongside my night snack, but what did I do? Had it anyway. Take that ana, not letting you ruin my life any longer. 🥰 hope you all have an amazing day and keep fighting that ed!

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Smoked salmon toast... highly underrated. I’ve got to get my hands on some soon! One of my favourite meals is the classic herb and 🧄 spread on crispy 🍞 with capers, red onions, arugula, dill, thinly sliced cucumbers and smoked salmon. But, changing up my meals time to time is something I want to focus more on. Eating the same thing everyday is great don’t get me wrong, I look forward to my same old meals. ⠀ But, to get away from habits, and challenge ourselves with new, non ritual food, it is important to change things up. ⠀ ⠀ ➡️ CHANGE IS A CONSTANT PART OF LIFE.⠀ ⠀ How would we grow if there wasn’t? ⠀ ⠀ Never doubt yourself, there is always going to be room for more growth. ⠀ ⠀ It is okay to feel fear towards it too.⠀ ⠀ What matters, is simply how you respond to these fears. ⠀ ⠀ Sometimes change is challenging these fears, and other times it may be removing things that cause more pain. ⠀ ⠀ Change involves not only adjusting the mind, but your physical body and soul.⠀ ⠀ Change is good, I promise.⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ . .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ .⠀ #recovery  #mentalhealthawareness  #fightthestigma  #selfimprovement  #selfcare  #edrecovery  #mentalhealth #recoverywarrior #recoveryispossible #recoveryjourney #recoveryquotes #recoverywin #selfcare  #selflove  #selfcompassion  #innerchild  #innerhealing  #soulcare  #soulhunger  #innerspirit  #loveyourself  #mentalhealth  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealthrecovery  #endthestigmaofmentalhealth  #selflovespo #bodypositive #bodyposi #bodypositivity #loveyourbody #selfgrowth #selfdevelopment #self

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Started the day with a yummy breakfast and my favorite tv-show!🥖🍓🧀🥒 💗☺️⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ I really want to get better now. I want food to ONLY be something fun and easy and yummy. Not something that gives me anxiety and something I can only eat x amount of. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ And if you feel hungry right now, whether it’s physically or mentally, GO EAT!!🍍🌮🍕🍿🍫🥞🥐🍉🍪🥗

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Today’s bowl of goodnesses 💛 mango oats . . . Chia, cinnamon and salt in my porridge. Topped with fresh mango, pumpkin and sunflower seeds and PB 😋 . #edrecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiafighter #foodlover #foodporn #veganfood #vegan #anorexiawarrior #fighter #veganrecipes #oatmeal #oats #porridge #banana #porridgebowl #vegetarianfood #nourishyourbody #foodinspiration #grötfrukost #gröt #frukost #breakfast #breakfastideas #nightsnack #snack #dessert #desserts #oatsforbreakfast #porridgelover

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Dealing with Injury As you all may know I have been struggling with an injury that has sidelined me from running for over 12 weeks now. I have to admit, with it being my first serious injury that prevented me from running for a long period of time, I wasn’t great at coping with it at the start. However, over the past 12 weeks, I have definitely found many ways to help me navigate the heartbeat of losing the sport I love, and being able to deal with situation much better. I thought I would share them with you for anyone else struggling with injury too. This can also apply to those who have decided to take a break from running in order to recover from RED-S. 1. Get in the right headspace I definitely spent countless nights, tossing and turning, unable to control to physical and emotional pain eating away at me as I thought I was failing because I couldn’t run. However after reframing my headspace, I first had to remember that my identity is far greater than just being an athlete, and I was able to find new areas to put my identity. I gave myself space to grieve. Yes, injury is hard, but I am now able to recognise my feelings and embrace them, so I can change the thoughts and move forward. 2. Analyse the cause Why did I get injured in the first place? Did I run too many miles? Did I not fuel my body enough? Did I not allow my body the time to rest and recover? Yes, you have to take ownership of the injury. It isn’t all your fault, but there are probably many factors that you could have changed in order to have prevented the injury. Especially with those struggling with RED-S, underfuelling and overtraining are major factors that increase your risk of injury along with ammenhorea and decreased bone density as a side effect of the condition. Take this time to assess the potential causes and move forward with hope 3. Implement changes Yes, you can spend time thinking about what you did wrong, but the hard part comes in implementing those changes. Creating a plan for myself made me more determined person knowing that I could decrease the likelihood of having to repeat this again

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I apologize in advance because this isn’t going to be a super positive post. I know it seems kind of ironic because all I post is pretty flower pictures, but god, the process of recovery can be so ugly. I’m not talking about physical changes. I’m talking about recovering when you’re not an instagram aesthetic blogger, youtuber, someone rich or with support parents and a partner etc. I’m doing this entirely alone with just some the support I get on this account. While in real life I’m trapped in this negative household. Before quarantine I could have escapes. Now my only escape is work which...is retail and food service. The rational part of me knows recovery is hard as hell for anyone, and that it’s not this sunshine rainbows process everyone makes it out to be, but the immature (I guess) side of me gets so jealous and envious of these people who can recover while being in an environment where they feel loved and supported or at the very least safe. Please cherish that if you have it. If you don’t, I guess that’s what accounts like mine are for. To show you that a lot of us might be lonely but we’re never truly alone. To be honest when I first made this account I thought I wouldn’t be acknowledged at all but I’m really thankful for the people I’ve had the opportunity to talk to For an update on other recovery stuff I guess, 3 weeks all-in: - I’m crying almost every other day not going to lie. I feel super sensitive. - I noticed I will feel good about my body but then when someone is upset with me I feel ugly. Shows that I’m still attaching too much of my worth to my appearance - Food is literally whatever at this point. I still occasionally mentally count calories but it’s getting better and I hardly think about food I just eat when I’m hungry. - Sleep has been weird but not awful. - Lots of heart palpitations and sometimes trouble with breathing - Still no period. #edrecovery #mentalhealth #bodyimage #hypothalamicamenorrhea #mentalillness

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Breakfast! - Overnight oats, with vegan yoghurt, soya milk, chia seeds, cinnamon syrup, strawberries, banana and peanut butter. 25g of protein! - #fitness #fitnessmotivation #food #vegan #edrecovery #bulimiarecovery

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Setting goals! Goals have been a huge motivation for me to get better. I have found putting a goal in place for me to achieve I am able to ignore the unwanted thoughts and push pass them to reach my goals. For example I really wanted to get my driving license, so I had to prove to my parents that I was doing well or I wanted to join a running club but could only when I was healthy! Setting these goals will honestly help your recovery and even just in general seeing goals is a great way of trying to accomplish things. This was my breakfast today! Oat and spelt and banana porridge topped with strawberries and chia seeds for omega 3’s. Let me know what goals you have set yourselves!

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#growth will always hurt at first but it is necessary and you’ll thank yourself for it. #growthmindset

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I find it helpful to separate the voice of anorexia from myself. Like with lunch, I thought ‘oh that’s a big portion, do I need all that?’ Then I’m like no no, I didn’t think that, anorexia did. And given that anorexia said that, I need to eat this lunch to beat her! (for me she’s a female demon) Or with the voices I hear (as in hallucinations outside my head) telling me I should push someone onto the track when I’m waiting for a train. I didn’t say that to myself, Ominous did. (that’s the name I gave one of my voices because he won’t tell me his name) I expect the first example is more relatable for a lot of you, and I hope those of you who haven’t experienced voices and visions don’t now judge me as insane. Too bad if you do, for you’d be missing out on some wise wisdom 🤓😇 and that is this: you are not your mental illness. That is one small part of you and you are stronger than it, for you can live without it but it cannot survive without you 🙌 image description: Alice in a top she loves (from New Look), charity shop shorts and a natural, slightly bulging out the sides tummy. Also you can’t see this in the picture but Alice is smiling right now because she daringly wrote ‘wise wisdom’. That’s funny because wisdom already necessarily means wise advice but I also wrote wise haha an unnecessary word, I make myself laugh... #iamnotmymentalillness #recoveryisepic

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After breakfast Fortimel TW☇ I finished it in 1 hour and 35 minutes 😣 #eatingdisorder #recovery #anorexia #edrecovery #energymultifibre #Fortimel #fuckthated

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I had an absolute blast chatting with @sofiatoumbas on the “Brain To Bar” podcast, where I was given the opportunity to talk openly about my relationship with food, exercise, and mindset 😌🧠 - I’m so grateful to have been able to speak on this platform, particularly because I’ve received a lot of positive feedback on how I’ve handled my post-competition reverse diet quite well in 2020… however what many people don’t know is this is now my EIGHTH year of putting tremendous effort into improving my relationship with food, exercise, my body and mind… and there were many years where I severely, severely struggled. - I truly believe opening up about these topics has the potential to help so many others who may be struggling in silence with similar battles – talking, being listened to, and knowing that you aren’t alone truly does help 💛 - To find the podcast, simply search “Brain To Bar” on any podcast app ☺️🎙 @braintobar.podcast - - - #ifbb #ifbbbikini #fitness #brainpower #npcbikiniprep #npcbikini #fitnessmodel #bikinicompetitor #physique #bodybuilding #lean #improvementseason #progress #progresspicture #relationshipwithfood #podcast #selflove #fitnesspodcast #onlinecoach #podcastinterview #recovery #healthymindset #bodybuildingpodcast #physiquegoals #edrecovery #compprepjourney #stageshot #bikinicompprep #offseason #comptan

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Tonight for dessert, I had a bowl of cereal with chocolate ice cream and Nutella🥰❤️. • I also had a mug of warm milk after this while mum painted my nails☺️. • My life has improved since I started recovery. No question. • I’m actually capable of feeling joy😊. • My relationships with family have improved🧡. • Food doesn’t invoke nearly as much anxiety🧁. • I don’t feel like a failure if I don’t exercise🏃‍♀️. • I also have SO much more respect for myself❤️. • And it’s only since starting recovery that I can see how bitter and mean my eating disorder made me😔. • And it’s only since starting recovery that I can see how full of anxiety my life used to be😬. • And it’s only since starting recovery that I see how little respect and love I had for myself before💔. • I don’t think that these things are clear when in the midst of an eating disorder, but they become SO obvious once beginning recovery. • It becomes clear that life with an eating disorder is not better, safer or admirable. • It becomes clear that you can live happily in your natural body, eating without restriction and just letting the universe take control💫. • And finally, one thing that made me smile today was when mum said she was proud of me for eating the dinner that dad cooked tonight💕. • I hope you’re having a great day❤️. • #eatingdisordersupport #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisorder #disorderedeating #disorderedeatingrecovery #edrecovery #recovery #recoverywarrior #recoverywarriors #recoveryispossible #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentalillness #ana #anarecovery #foodphotography #foodpics #dessert #desserts #icecream #chocolate #recoveryaccount #recoveryjourney #dessertlover #chocolateicecream #nutella

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this was my mood last night. i am still struggling with thoughts and bad body image. last night i eat a cornetto after i realized ed just loving to see me miserable but i am gaing that weight quicker than i expected. i know recovery is not linear but i am going to try my best. #ed #recovery #allin #weight #bodyimage #edrecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiafighter

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Recovery isn't linear. There will be days where you are full of hope and determination that you WILL beat this. Then in a matter of seconds that all changes and you're wanting to claw the skin off your bones and give up. There will be days where you look in the mirror and feel a growing confidence within you. But there will also be days where the sight of your reflection causes you to burst into tears and hide away from the rest of the world in fear that people will finally see what you see. Weight gain isn't linear in recovery either. Most people think that by eating a little bit more than you were that this will result in the weight going on and before you know it, hey presto, you're at a healthy weight. The reality is that recovery from anorexia requires you to eat a whole lot more than someone who is healthy. So you'll find yourself working through different stages, where your weight plateaus and you'll need to increase your food intake in order to keep going. There may be some weeks where you lose weight, and it'll confuse you because you know you've been behaviour free and trying your best. But there will come a point where your body adapts, and your metabolism starts working properly, and you need to eat more to reach restoration. And this is terrifying. And you'll want to compare yourself to other people. You WILL compare yourself to other people. But you have to realise that every body is different with different requirements. Someone living without an eating disorder has completely different needs to someone recovering from an eating disorder. Trust in your body and know that the weight isn't going to keep going up forever. Your body knows what it's doing and it will get you to where your body naturally needs to be. Where it should have been all along.🌈✨💖 #recovery #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #anorexia #eatingdisorderrecovery #edwarrior #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealth #bddrecovery #bodydysmorphia #depression #nevergiveup #bulimiarecovery #beatinganorexia #prorecovery #edcommunity #realrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #anxiety #bodydysmorphicdisorder #gainingweightiscool #dontcompare #selfacceptance #recoveryisppssible #recoveryisworthit

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👆🏻Das war mein heutiges Frühstück, Oats inspired by @emeline_recovers (Das mit den schönen Bildern werde ich noch ein wenig üben 😅) ~~~~~~~~~~~~ Wo soll ich wohl am besten anfangen ? Erstmal ein TW! Die letzten Wochen - eigentlich Monate - liefen alles andere als gut. Ich finde mich in alten Verhaltensmustern wieder und merke wie sehr ich wieder in die Fänge dieser blöden Essstörung (diesmal primär der Anorexie) geraten bin. Begleitet von Depressionen macht sie mir derzeit das Leben schwer... Aber das möchte ich ändern ! Ich möchte wieder Leben und frei sein und die ganze Thematik endgültig hinter mir lassen ! Ich möchte lernen mich endlich so zu akzeptieren und zu mögen wie ich bin ! Und ich möchte diese Seite nutzen um meinen eigenen Weg etwas zu dokumentieren, andere zu inspirieren und zu motivieren und selbst in schweren Phasen Motivation zu erhalten 🙈. Zu meiner eigenen Krankheits-Geschichte werde ich demnächst einen Post machen (oder 2, sie ist schon etwas länger 😅) und auch dazu, wer ich eigentlich bin und was ich so mache... Ansonsten werden hier nicht nur Beiträge zum Essen selbst kommen sondern auch zu anderen Themen & Problemen, die im Rahmen der Essstörung bzw. der #recovery so aufkommen. Und ich werde versuchen möglichst aktiv zu sein 😅 #schönklinik #schönklinikroseneck #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexia #bulimiarecovery #bulimiafighter #selflove #selfcare #recoveryfood

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Is movement good for us? Absolutely! Is movement also an eating disorder behavior? Absolutely! If the only motivation to get out for that walk, jog, bike ride or class today is for the purpose of earning food it might be time to reassess your relationship with movement/exercise.

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Hi I’m Georgie I’m 16 and I was diagnosed with anorexia a year ago. Even though it’s something I still struggle with daily I try to love my life as much as I can because a illness shouldn’t hold me back! I missed almost a term of school because of my anorexia and sadly I will never get that back, but that just means I need to work harder every day so that I can be like everyone else. Anorexia is a horrible illness where you lose who you are, I was always known for being happy and smiling since I was young but when I developed anorexia all of that stopped as I was wrapped up in my thoughts, now that I’m recovering I’m finally starting to get Georgie back and it feels amazing! anorexia has already taken so much from me and I refuse to let it take anymore! Xx💘 #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #mentalhealth #anarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #edfighter #ed #recoveryispossible #prorecovery #recoveryisworthit #intuitiveeating #recoverywin #mentalhealthawareness #selflove #anorexianervosa #bodypositive #anorexiafighter #eatittobeatit #loveyourbodynow #loveyourselfmore #selfloveisfirstlove #yourareenough #freeyourbody

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Summer weather, fresh berries, summer in a bowl🌺🌸 🌺Toppings: Granola Fried mullberries Fresh berries Pumpkin seeds #oatmealbowl #oatspiration #gröt #puuro #porridge #oats #oatmeal #edrecovery #breakfast #vegan #anorexianervosarecovery

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Tracking Calories🔥 Tracking my calorie output is something that I started doing in 2014, since then I've had a Fitbit, Apple Watch and Garmin to track. To start with it was something to monitor how far I was running, swimming and cycling but then it just became an obsession. I had to burn the set calorie goal if not more. To put that into context, on active calories alone I made myself burn 2252 kcal a day, that's not including my basal metabolic rate. Over time this just became a very bad habit and I would become extremely anxious if I didn't reach my calorie goal. Gradually with support, I learnt how to control my need for tracking calories but still find it comforting having it there even if I don't pay attention to the numbers. This and last week I have decided to take off the watch and see what will happen!🙈 I know I will still estimate how far I have run, walked etc but not having the physical numbers in front of me hopefully, will show me that I can exercise for exercise and not for getting the numbers as high as possible. If you ever need a chat, let's talk😊 Hope you have a beautiful day🌸

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Sooo happy to be back to my #yoga! . Growing up, exercise was always synonymous with losing weight. A way to get that #summerbody. . And the fastest way of losing weight through exercise is cardio. So in my mind, cardio was the only form of exercise worth doing. . And I absolutely hated it. I couldn't put my finger on why at the time, but I really hated it. . I thought the cardio that I hated was the only form of exercise worth doing. So I gave up on exercise altogether. . Sound familiar? . It's taken me a long time to break free from the idea that exercise is just about losing weight. My ED recovery is what taught me that. But even if I learnt that exercise was about more than weight loss, I still hated it. It was a broken relationship. In the end, I repaired that relationship by figuring out why I hated it in the first place. . In retrospect, I hated exercise because I couldn't keep up. It didn't matter that everyone else in my spin class had been doing this for years or that my boyfriend could run half marathons, I couldn't keep up. I kept reaching my limit and feeling like I couldn't breathe and needing to stop. In my mind, I was a failure because of it. . It may sound ridiculous but that's just how my brain works. It took that retrospect of realising why I hated exercise so much for me to give it one more chance. . I chose yoga and #weightlifting because while you can definitely push yourself, you don't get that scary "I can't breathe" feeling when you reach your limit. You can just adjust and still do the exercise and you don't need to stop. And, in my mind, that's a lot more achievable and I can be kinder to myself. . They say exercise is more about the mental challenge than the physical. I never realised how right they were. By figuring out how my mind works, I figured out how to enjoy exercise and, bit by sweaty bit, repaired my relationship with it. . And I'm so glad I did. . Don't give up on #exercise. We all deserve the mental and physical benefits that it can give us. If you are the way I used to be and hate exercise, try to understand why. Who knows? It might be the key to you loving it. . #mentalhealth #physicalhealth #yesyoucan

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What I think of cheat days :/ ——————————————————————————🦋 Cheat days are often seen as a way of releasing the built up pressure which comes with restricting. But the way I see it, they’re glorified binge days. I could never make it through the “cheat day” without overeating, feeling extremely guilty and then purging. At some point I stopped appreciating the food and focused on eating everything I had been craving during the week. It was everything but healthy. Cheat days almost dragged me into a bpd and for that reason I think they’re highly unnecessary. Moderate eating is way more satisfying and guilt free than anything else. Now, I have learnt to make space for the foods which I crave so that I don’t exceed my calorie limit but still satisfy the craving. I haven’t fully recovered yet, I’m on it, I’m doing pretty good but I haven’t completely recovered yet so yes, I still have a calorie limit. But it is larger than what it used to be though. ——————————————————————————— So my tips would be to: • Not heavy restrict as it leads to bingeing. • Challenge yourself to up your calories • Always keep in mind that bingeing/purging can be fatal and ask yourself, is it really worth it? The answer will always be no. • Always keep in mind that there is no good ending to an eating disorder. Society has glorified it in such ways that people easily underestimate the fatality of it. Eating disorders kill. The destroy lives. Dieting isn’t, never was and never will be sustainable, it’s no way to live. Instead, focus on building healthy habits which will last a lifetime. ——————————————————————————— Take care of yourselves <3

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🍫🍰Chocolate dream🍰🍫 The cake queen is back. Chocolate whipped cream brownie cake with chocolate pearls and crispies! I feeling bad since a few week, I don’t get out of the circle .. „stop eating“ is the same difficult way than „start eating“. Never though that. I can’t handle the heat, eat eat eat..🙁😕 I distract myself, but it doesn't work. Mh, sry for the negative thoughts.. I only wish, that this way stops during the time.. #problems #eating #cake #food #disorder #dessert #dessertporn #foodporn #chocolate #chocolatecake #torte #sahnetorte

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✨𝙶𝚘𝚊𝚕𝚜 & 𝙳𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖𝚜✨ One of our weekly topics while completing the ambassador training program for CGM was goal setting- “Dreams Don’t Work Unless You Do.” @katie.jones_x lead us through the importance of goal setting, & helped us set our own goals. This was one of my favourite topics because 1) I’ve always loved goal setting, & 2) I often don’t take any action towards my goals!! My biggest goal right now is recovery-It’s my current dream. Recovery will allow me to live a life where I can actually work on other goals. It will allow me to put my energy into my passions & career. Time after time I’ve been dreaming of what recovery would look like for me but it remained just that: a dream. Over the last month I’ve really begun focusing more on this goal, like actually prioritising recovery 😅, & I’ve doing that planning out & creating small little recovery goals has really boosted my motivation!! From the beginning of my ‘official’ recovery a month ago, I’ve been asking myself “what can I do today to get me closer to where I ultimately want to be?” But in this last week I lost sight of why I began recovery, I began slipping back so fast I didn’t even know what was happening...until yesterday. Those same thoughts & feelings that pushed me to choose recovery a month ago were back. Those same feelings I never wanted to feel again-they were back. This morning when I woke up I planned on continuing down that dark path but then I visualised where I truly wanted to be. I say down for 10 minutes & meditated on my dream of recovery...& then I said FUCK IT 😅. At the beginning of the month I planned to reach a half meal plan (as a minimum) from way back in Paeds within a week. So yeh even though I’m a bit off with timings, I’m proud to say that I’ve reached my first checkpoint of my plan for this goal, to get to that meal plan. Now this was only my first marker, I still need to increase ALOT! But I am proud for myself & now I’m motivated to KEEP GOING & KEEP RUNNING STRAIGHT INTO THE FEAR because ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS!!

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Who wants the recipe for my crispy tofu nuggets !? It’s SUPER EASY ! Since tackling my IBS, Gastroperesis and Gastritis I’ve been feeling a TON better. My past lunch included falafel, hummus and tomatoes which could trigger my gut SO things had to change BUT I did not take the opportunity to cut things out !!!! Instead I make SWAPS. That’s my motto of the moment SWAPS NOT CUTS. For today’s lunch I swap falafel for tofu, swap bread for rice, swap cauliflower for lettuce and of course PUMPKIN because obviously the greatest vegetable ever ! I also popped on some tomato sauce if that doesn’t trigger your gastritis too much. This meal still hits all the things we need, carbs, fat, protein AND micronutrients too !!! WHAT A KILLER LUNCH !!! . . Eating vegan, IBS, Gastroperesis and Gastritis can seem overwhelming and restrictive BUT I actually think it’s ok, I’m trying to come at it with swaps not cuts and an abundance mindset. AND if I want a food that may flare me I may just say f**k it for that particular day because YOLO . . Let me know if you want to see the recipe and more things like this 😊 Love and light Jessie😊💕☀️ . . . #vegan #veganrecipes #veganfood #vegetarianrecipes #vegetarian #tofu #buddhabowl #gastroparesis #gastritis #ibs #ibsdiet #edrecovery #edrecoverywarrior #edrecovering #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiarecover #anorexiafighter #selflove #bodypositivity #bodypositive #haes #nourishyourbody #nourishyourself #nourishtoflourish #nourishingfood #healthylifestyle #mentalhealth

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Just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean that life isn’t better without your eating disorder there. Eating disorders cloud your judgement and vision. Sometimes you are so entrenched in your eating disorder that you lose sight of the light. And it’s hard looking for the motivation to recover in a pitch black pit. It’s hard to wish for life, if you’ve forgotten what living feels like. And I can tell you over and over again what living smells like & tastes like & feels like - and you can remind yourself of that over and over again. But sometimes you just have to chase it without knowing what it looks like. Sometimes you just have to take a leap of faith and choose recovery, even when you don’t know why you’d do that. Because sometimes, you gotta lose something first before you are ever able to see you wanted it gone in the first place.

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I had a really down and out week last week. I’m excited to say that this week has been much better. - ✨ focusing on what I value ✨ focusing on what makes me valuable ✨ speaking a lot kinder to myself ✨ solid week of booked out sessions ✨ 12 week home guide launch Crop & tights @cottononbody • • • • • • • • • • #ditchthediet #intuitiveeating #mindfuleating #nutrition #nutritioncoach #selfcare #nondiet #allfoodsfit #foodfreedom #bodykindness #healthy #dietsdontwork #mentalhealth #dietculturedropout #healthyliving #bopo #bodypositive #bodypositivemovement #bodypositivity #normalisenormalbodies #normalizenormalbodies #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness

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I love being a trainer & putting clients through tough workouts that make them feel awesome after & having a front seat in their incredible fitness journey✨ but making yummy, healthy food for people that will BLESS their bodies might be my absolute favorite thing to do.🤗🙌🏻😋😇 . I make my protein bars multiple times a week...to have at our house, for my fam, for my clients & their fams, but today was even more exciting for me (omg I’m 1000% a nerd🤓👀) BECAUSE this batch was made special for one of my fav people & newest client... @trista_novak You mean so much to me & I couldn’t love you more.😘 PS...you can get them tomorrow after your workout...ya gotta earn ‘em😏💪🏻🤷🏻‍♀️😂 . Side note: SUBSCRIBERS, make sure ya check your inboxes for my Birthday Cake Cookie Dough recipe.🎂🍪😋😚💕

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⁣ Good-morning all! ☀ So, today marks DAY 7 of my recovery journey - week one is almost complete! WOOP WOOP ✊🏻💪🏻🌈 ⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ There have been a few bumps in the road, as I’ve admitted. Particularly yesterday. I felt uncomfortable, overwhelmed, over-emotional, and overall freaked the fuck out. ⠀ ⠀ There have been days where I just haven’t wanted to get out of bed. Days that I’ve wanted to give up and resort back to my ED. But here’s the thing - I didn’t‼⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ It’s been an incredibly successful first week. I haven’t listened to the voices raging inside my head. I’ve managed to stick to my meal plan, consistently take my medication, get out and about yesterday and make time or my family in the process. 🙌🏻 ⠀ ⠀ But most importantly, I’ve managed to stay out of the hospital! This page is certainly helping to keep me accountable on all fronts, as are all of you! I can’t thank you enough for your support. 🥰💕⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ So let’s get down to business. This-morning I was craving something sweet, yet again, and finally acquired some bananas. So, I hopped to it, got creative, and made some lovely chia pudding w/ maple sautéed bananas - my god was it scrumptious! 🤤🍦⠀ ⠀⠀⠀ I’m continuing to welcome my cravings with open arms, as best I can, no matter how hard that may be some days. 🙏🏻⠀ So, take a gander at this-morning’s isolation-creation, along with my daily morning greeting/update. And STAY TUNED for tonights “reveal!” 🔥‼⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Follow my health journey @rediscovering.em 💕🙏🏻💕🙏🏻💕⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀ All my 💜 and ✌🏻out;⠀⠀⠀ Em xx⠀ .⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ .⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ .⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ .⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisordersurvivor #eatingdisorderfighter #edrecovery #edfighter #edwarrior #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #bulimiarecovery #wellnesswarrior #recoverywarrior #journeytohealth #realcovery #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthwarrior #mentalillnessawareness #mentalillnessrecovery #recoveryispossible #chooserecovery #loveyourselffirst #nourishyourbody #dessertporn #morningroutine #breakfastporn #foodiesofinstagram #foodstagram #chiapudding

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