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All great change begins with awareness. We have to leave the familiar, push past our comfort zone, see outside of our own blind spots and perspectives to see what is right in front of us.⁣ ⁣ We do not heal in isolation. We need that person in our corner saying, “Hey, there’s this thing in your blindspot you can’t see, are you interested in exploring it?” ⁣ ⁣ These kinds of insights cause massive breakthroughs and shifts in our lives so profound that we can’t unsee what’s been seen and it alters our course and direction in life. ⁣ ⁣ What would you be willing to discover through a healing partnership? ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #truth #healing #truthseeker #gratitude #energy #nyc #lifecoach #coaching #higherself #intuition #mindset #consciousness #mindsetiseverything #awakening #intuitive #spiritualawakening #positivevibes #personaldevelopment #personalgrowth #journey #passion #purpose #selflove #trusttheprocess #universe #spiritualawakening #spiritual #soul #lightworker

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In my own experience with love addiction, loving addicts and having addicted family members to varying degrees, addiction stems from a place of not being able to navigate the onslaught of some of the darkest feelings in our own personal arsenal.⁣ ⁣ Deep trauma occurred that sent the message that we are unloved, unworthy, broken, unsalvageable, unimportant and utterly alone.⁣ ⁣ If you’re familiar with PolyVagal theory, it’s being stuck in dorsal — that hopeless isolation and despair, at a loss of connection and difficulty finding your way home. It’s like that, on repeat. The drug is the only way out, the only source of connection. The same goes for love addiction — there is no love or esteem to be found inside, it can only be supplied by another person (and usually an addict themselves). This is the painful dance of Tantalus, yet, it’s love that is always just out of reach.⁣ ⁣ Addicts don’t want to be addicts, they want to very much be healed and be seen as normal and in control, but their trauma and subconscious are running the show.⁣ ⁣ If you’re struggling, it’s not your fault. I know it’s hard to believe that there’s hope but healing can happen and you can be the cause. Believe it or not, your brain and autonomic nervous system can be retrained and rewired for healthy love and healthy connection. Don’t give up on yourself.⁣ ⁣ If you’d like to work with me, follow my link in the bio or click on Book Now on Facebook for a personal consultation. ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #depressionandanxiety #selflove#selflovematters #healyourself #emotionalabuse #heal #energy #reparenting #chooseyourself #loveyouremotions #selflovetips #selflovethreads #emotionallyunavailable #selflovery #codependency #selflover #loveaddiction #selflovemovement #relationshipstuff #journey #relationshipptsd #lovingyourself #trusttheprocess #selflovethread #toxicrelationship #lovingmyselffirst #loveadvice #lovingmyselfmore

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You make sense. Why you are where you are. Where you’re stuck. Where you’re not moving. Where you struggle. Why you want what you want. It makes sense.⁣ ⁣ You are not overreacting, you are reacting and responding in a way that matches your lived experience. You are normal. And everything has a perfectly logical explanation. All you need to do is follow your nervous system to find the wisdom buried within your body.⁣ ⁣ You are doing a good job. You are doing the best you can with what you’ve been given. Try not to judge yourself and say that you should be doing better. That you should have been further. You can use the information and awareness that you have now to make new choices.⁣ ⁣ There is no shame in wanting what you want. You deserve to have what you want. You are beyond worthy of having what you desire. It’s ok to be where you are.⁣ ⁣ Look at all the work you’ve done and how far you’ve come. I’m proud of you. ⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #depressionandanxiety #selflove#selflovematters #healyourself #emotionalabuse #heal #energy #reparenting #chooseyourself #loveyouremotions #selflovetips #selflovethreads #emotionallyunavailable #selflovery #codependency #selflover #loveaddiction #selflovemovement #relationshipstuff #journey #relationshipptsd #lovingyourself #trusttheprocess #selflovethread #toxicrelationship #lovingmyselffirst #loveadvice #lovingmyselfmore

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An excerpt from my latest blog, I Wish I’d Gotten to Know You Before the Years Wrote Tragedy Across Your Heart. ⁣ If you haven’t read it yet, click on the link in my bio...follow the prompts 🤗⁣ ⁣ Likes and comments on the blog help me to get my writing out to a larger audience. It’s hosted on Elephant Journal and making an account is free.⁣ ⁣ I’d love to hear your thoughts.⁣ ⁣ Xoxo, ⁣ ⁣ Angela⁣ @epicinitiator ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #depressionandanxiety #selflove#selflovematters #healyourself #newblog #healingmyself #writersociety #reparenting #chooseyourself #addiction #selflovetips #selflovethreads #emotionallyunavailable #selflovery #codependency #selflover #loveaddiction #selflovemovement #relationshipstuff #learningtolovemyself #purpose #love #trusttheprocess #selflovethread #toxicrelationship #spiritual #learningtolove #learningtoloveme

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It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas...in fact, it’s in every room. That’s ok 👍 with me!⁣ ⁣ This Christmas season, if you are single and feeling alone, know that you can write a wish list for what you want in a future partner. Wrap it inside a beautiful box with a bow on it. Open it on Christmas and give gratitude for receiving this gift that is coming your way.⁣ ⁣ In the meantime, you can practice being the type of person who is the right partner of the one you envision. Who do you need to be to ready to receive this love?⁣ ⁣ Give yourself the gift of loving yourself the way you’d want someone else to love you. ⁣ ⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #depressionandanxiety #selflove#selflovematters #healyourself #emotionalabuse #heal #energy #reparenting #chooseyourself #addiction #selflovetips #selflovethreads #emotionallyunavailable #selflovery #codependency #selflover #loveaddiction #selflovemovement #relationshipstuff #journey #purpose #love #trusttheprocess #selflovethread #toxicrelationship #spiritual #loveadvice #change

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I made three versions of this poster so you can repost it in whichever way resonates most deeply with you.⁣ ⁣ Have you ever considered that your sensitive soul can feel the sadness of things, of the earth, of all your personal past hurts and the past hurts of others? It can feel the amount of unfelt grief and weeping needing to come forth.⁣ ⁣ Could it be that you are the valve? That you are simply in tune? We do not need to desensitize, we need to resensitize ourselves. The world has become numb.⁣ ⁣ Dear empath, dear man, women, human, however you identify — you are here to lead the way, to help people feel and heal their hearts.⁣ ⁣ You are not too sensitive because you feel. You were made to be sensitive so you could heal.⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #healing #trauma #polyvagaltheory #abuse #heal #reparenting #toxicpeople #toxicrelationships #triggered #personalgrowth #innerchildwork #innerchild #personaldevelopment #relationships #lifecoaching #abusiverelationship #earlychildhoodabuse #lifecoach #therapy #emotionalabuse #empath #seeker #trustissues #help #helpme #codependency #codependent #codependentnomore #abusiverelationships

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How to Raise an Avoidant — check out the corresponding video on my IGTV! 🤓⁣ ⁣ Avoidant attachment style is marked by approach anxiety and a stubborn sense of independence. Asking for help is not only just not natural, it’s just not how you operate. If you want something done right, do it yourself.⁣ ⁣ Avoidants can come off as securely attached folk because of their ability to self-soothe and comfort with being alone. They tend to crave relationships but when things feel to close or too intimate, they tend to panic, push loved ones away and distance. Fear of losing ones freedom and sense of boundaries becomes imminent.⁣ ⁣ Do you relate?⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #relationships #love #attachment #polyvagaltheory #healing #datingstrategy #attachmenttrauma #attachmentstyles #reparenting #trauma #consciousdating #relationshipgoals #codependent #couples #relationshipproblems #codependency #consciouscoupling #loveaddiction #personaldevelopment #personalgrowth #journey #purpose #loveshouldnthurt #trusttheprocess #universe #spiritualawakening #spiritual #soul #change

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Do you identify with the avoidant attachment style at all? You can...they operate on a spectrum. You can even be a more secure type with some avoidant characteristics or even anxious characteristics.⁣ ⁣ Let me know in the comments if and how this shows up for you. Have you ever known or dated someone with this attachment style?⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #healing #trauma #polyvagaltheory #abuse #heal #reparenting #toxicpeople #toxicrelationships #triggered #personalgrowth #innerchildwork #innerchild #personaldevelopment #relationships #lifecoaching #abusiverelationship #earlychildhoodabuse #lifecoach #therapy #emotionalabuse #j #seeker #trustissues #help #helpme #codependency #codependent #codependentnomore #abusiverelationships

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Ultimately why dating with strategy will fail you — what’s mentioned here, but also is that you can’t escape your unhealed attachment style and trauma. Wherever you go, there you are and your subconscious is the one filtering your dates for you. ⁣ ⁣ Strategy also takes you out of the present moment and away from intimacy. It moves you from your heart to your head and there your potential partner becomes the enemy whom you are closely watching, hypervigilant, waiting for betrayal, abandonment or to be injured. ⁣ ⁣ The other takeaway: self-regulation (Being able you emotionally regulate yourself) is just as important as coregulation (being able to regulate with others). Others can easily detect a nervous system in fight/flight/freeze, but perhaps, the most ventral person (well regulated) wouldn’t run away, so could it be that being your most authentic self is the actual key after all?⁣ ⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #relationships #love #attachment #polyvagaltheory #healing #datingstrategy #attachmenttrauma #attachmentstyles #reparenting #trauma #consciousdating #relationshipgoals #codependent #couples #relationshipproblems #codependency #consciouscoupling #loveaddiction #personaldevelopment #personalgrowth #journey #purpose #loveshouldnthurt #trusttheprocess #universe #spiritualawakening #spiritual #soul #change

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“I wish I could have been there for you. I wouldn’t have just told you it wasn’t your fault, I would have taken you far away from there. I would have stood up for you, stood strong in the face of rage and fear and told you that you deserved better. I wouldn’t have just told you, I would have shown you. I wouldn’t have let you fight your battles alone. I wouldn’t have shamed, rejected, and abandoned you for feeling. I wouldn’t have left you in fear and panic to deal with all of your messy emotions in solitude inside your small body.”⁣ ⁣ Excerpt from my newest blog: I Wish I’d Gotten to Know You Before the Years had Written Tragedy Across Your Heart.⁣ ⁣ Link in bio...⁣or click here via computer: https://www.elephantjournal.com/2019/11/i-wish-i-had-known-you-when-you-were-young/#epicinitiator #depressionandanxiety #selflove#selflovematters #healyourself #newblog #healingmyself #writersociety #reparenting #chooseyourself #addiction #selflovetips #selflovethreads #emotionallyunavailable #selflovery #codependency #selflover #loveaddiction #selflovemovement #relationshipstuff #learningtolovemyself #purpose #love #trusttheprocess #selflovethread #toxicrelationship #spiritual #learningtolove #learningtoloveme

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Yes, I misspelled feelings and wrote feelins’ 🤣 Had a back alley brawl with my perfectionist self. I won. Soooo...it’s not exactly pretty, but here’s the chart I made with my video. It got kinda cut off — and here you can zoom in if you need. ⁣ ⁣ If you’d like to watch the video, it’s my latest on IGTV called the Trauma-Response-Resolution cycle.⁣ ⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #healing #trauma #polyvagaltheory #abuse #heal #reparenting #toxicpeople #toxicrelationships #triggered #personalgrowth #innerchildwork #innerchild #personaldevelopment #relationships #lifecoaching #abusiverelationship #earlychildhoodabuse #lifecoach #therapy #emotionalabuse #j #seeker #trustissues #help #helpme #codependency #codependent #codependentnomore #abusiverelationships

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I’ve got a new article and apparently it’s a hit! 🤗⁣ Click on the link in my bio and click Read my Blog...you’re just a few clicks away. ⁣ ⁣⁣ Spoilers & Alerts: ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ 1) Have tissues nearby juuuuust in case.⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ 2) I didn’t choose the photo on the article, the editors did. This article is open to interpretation. I’d love to read about what it means to you in the comments on Elephant Journal...yes, I read them all.⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ Hope you enjoy!!⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ Xoxo,⁣⁣ Angela⁣⁣ @epicinitiator ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ #epicinitiator #depressionandanxiety #selflove#selflovematters #healyourself #newblog #healingmyself #writersociety #reparenting #chooseyourself #addiction #selflovetips #selflovethreads #emotionallyunavailable #selflovery #codependency #selflover #loveaddiction #selflovemovement #relationshipstuff #learningtolovemyself #purpose #love #trusttheprocess #selflovethread #toxicrelationship #spiritual #learningtolove #learningtoloveme ⁣⁣

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The best way I can think of in a chart to show you what happens to us so many times a day!!⁣ ⁣ And the good news is, there are choices to make. You can practice and get really good at this!⁣ ⁣ Hugs! ⁣ #epicinitiator #healing #trauma #polyvagaltheory #abuse #heal #reparenting #toxicpeople #toxicrelationships #triggered #personalgrowth #innerchildwork #innerchild #personaldevelopment #relationships #lifecoaching #abusiverelationship #earlychildhoodabuse #lifecoach #therapy #emotionalabuse #j #seeker #trustissues #help #helpme #codependency #codependent #codependentnomore #abusiverelationships

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This is my picture from Rebel Practitioner Live with @mastinkipp which was the most amazing seminar ever. Ever! ⁣ ⁣ I’m grateful to Mastin for taking pictures with all (100+) of us even though I’m pretty sure this is not his thing. 🤗⁣ ⁣ Thank you bringing together the most incredible community of humans that I’ve ever met. And thank you for helping us heal ourselves to we can heal the world. ❤️⁣ ⁣ Xoxo,⁣ @epicinitiator ⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #healing #trauma #polyvagaltheory #abuse #heal #reparenting #toxicpeople #toxicrelationships #triggered #personalgrowth #innerchildwork #innerchild #personaldevelopment #relationships #lifecoaching #abusiverelationship #earlychildhoodabuse #lifecoach #therapy #emotionalabuse #j #seeker #trustissues #help #helpme #codependency #codependent #codependentnomore #abusiverelationships

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Secret to Having Great Relationships⁣ ⁣ This applies for all relationships — anytime you’re interacting with another human being. If you really think about it, you know the answer...⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ Maybe you know the answer, but don’t know how. Yeah, that’s kind of the tricky part. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ #epicinitiator #depressionandanxiety #selflove#selflovematters #healyourself #emotionalabuse #heal #energy #reparenting #chooseyourself #loveyouremotions #selflovetips #selflovethreads #emotionallyunavailable #selflovery #codependency #selflover #loveaddiction #selflovemovement #relationshipstuff #journey #relationshipptsd #lovingyourself #trusttheprocess #selflovethread #toxicrelationship #lovingmyselffirst #loveadvice #lovingmyselfmore

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From Loving Bravely: “The great news about our stories is that we are always in charge of them. We are the authors! And, when we are willing to bravely explore how we are living within our life story, we open the possibility to change course. This doesn’t mean denying or minimizing painful events in the service of writing a fairy tale. But it may mean that the first step toward greater empowerment, authenticity, and wholeness is becoming aware that early events in your life led you to be cast in a role that no longer serves you.”⁣ ⁣ This is how all great change takes place: awareness and a willingness to do things differently. Being fed up is how you move up. ⁣ ⁣ Hope you’re all staying safe today.⁣ ⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #healing #trauma #polyvagaltheory #rewriteyourstory #heal #reparenting #toxicpeople #toxicrelationships #triggered #personalgrowth #innerchildwork #innerchild #personaldevelopment #relationships #lifecoaching #abusiverelationship #earlychildhoodabuse #lifecoach #therapy #emotionalabuse #j #seeker #trustissues #help #helpme #codependency #codependent #codependentnomore #abusiverelationships

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Relationships are deeply triggering and deeply confronting. They bring up allllll our shit.⁣ ⁣ Why? Because the stakes are high. Because we’re bonded. Because we’re attached and we’re vulnerable. ⁣ ⁣ Have you ever had a great time dating someone but the moment you really had deep feelings your stomach sank and you thought, “Well, fuck.”⁣ ⁣ That’s because you knew, a part of you knew that you were now vulnerable in a new way with this person. You’d come to expect them to be in your life, to support you and to be there with you when you laugh and cry. They’re important to you. They’re also massively important to your autonomic nervous system.⁣ ⁣ They’re the place you want to run to. They’re safe. You co-regulate (emotionally regulate) and have a warm connection. And it’s terrifying when it’s gone.⁣ ⁣ So, of course you fell. But you didn’t fail. And it’s normal for two people doing their best dealing with their underlying trauma to not know how to sustain a functional relationship. Being in a relationship is like a training ground inside a pressure cooker. You learn what doesn’t work, you heal and you try again.⁣ ⁣ You’ve got this. You’re doing a good job. Now, let’s focus on what you want to create. ⁣ ⁣ Work with me and let’s go deeper. Click on the link in my bio to apply if you’re serious about change but like to have fun while doing it.⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #healing #trauma #polyvagaltheory #abuse #heal #reparenting #toxicpeople #toxicrelationships #triggered #personalgrowth #innerchildwork #innerchild #personaldevelopment #relationships #lifecoaching #abusiverelationship #earlychildhoodabuse #lifecoach #therapy #emotionalabuse #j #seeker #trustissues #help #helpme #codependency #codependent #codependentnomore #abusiverelationships

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Just in case you need it, I’m giving you space to feel however you feel about today on today with no explanations, no apologies, no disclaimers. You have an absolute right to all your feelings and they don’t have to match the feelings reflected back to you from the world. ⁣ ⁣ I know we don’t all experience holidays the same — some of us celebrate, some of us work, some of us a reminded about things we’d rather not think about. So, it’s an understatement when I say that holidays can be complicated. Especially when the messages keep coming asking what you’re grateful for on this day of gratitude, suggesting that you be grateful. Soon the next holiday suggests that everything be merry and bright.⁣ ⁣ So, if for you, these times are a reminder of and magnifier of loss and hardship. you are being loved, you are being held, you are being supported. You are not alone.⁣ ⁣ Today, my prayer is that you know and know without question that you are loved and held and guided through this time. ⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #depressionandanxiety #selflove#selflovematters #healyourself #emotionalabuse #grieving #holidays #reparenting #chooseyourself #loveyouremotions #selflovetips #selflovethreads #permissiontofeel #selflovery #codependency #selflover #loveaddiction #selflovemovement #relationshipstuff #journey #relationshipptsd #lovingyourself #trusttheprocess #selflovethread #toxicrelationship #lovingmyselffirst #loveadvice #lovingmyselfmore

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This is layered and nuanced, but, if we think of our emotional body as our inner child then how we treat ourselves is usually adopted from how our parents treated us. For example if you had a mother who was an alcoholic and whenever you needed her emotionally she seem to be drunk, you will likely drink when you feel emotional. You embody your mother and continue the cycle of abandonment.⁣ ⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #healing #trauma #polyvagaltheory #abuse #heal #reparenting #toxicpeople #toxicrelationships #triggered #personalgrowth #innerchildwork #innerchild #personaldevelopment #relationships #lifecoaching #abusiverelationship #earlychildhoodabuse #lifecoach #therapy #emotionalabuse #j #seeker #trustissues #help #helpme #codependency #codependent #codependentnomore #abusiverelationships

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Me putting on lip gloss before I go to therapy so I can look pretty while I ugly cry. 😭😭😭⁣ ⁣ I’m one of those weirdos who views therapy as emotional exercise. I view my therapist as I as a team — she helps me see things I can’t always see alone and access things sometimes I stuff way down that needs to be said out loud. ⁣ ⁣ If you go to therapy, why do you love going? And when you DON’T want to go or avoid going what’s the main reason? ⁣ ⁣ #epicinitiator #therapy #duckfaceselfie #duckfaceonfleek #yesmyfaceisrubber #humor😂 #humor #lol #sillyface #goofballin #goofball #depressionandanxiety #selflove#selflovematters #healyourself #emotionalabuse #lipgloss #uglycry #reparenting #chooseyourself #addiction #selflovetips #selflovethreads #emotionallyunavailable #selflovery #codependency #selflover #loveaddiction #selflovemovement

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