Katri Vuorvirta

I tried to smile, I tried as hard as I was able to. And then realized, that I don't need to always smile. It's ok, not to be ok. . I've been blaming myself for not being able to stay positive today, I know things could be worse and stuff like that. But I came here with one goal: get my farm days done asap, and it really bothers me that I let my back reach the point where taking couple days off from work is just something I have to do.. Once again I feel like giving up, and letting the pain win, but then again, today has been REALLY hard day. Can't remember the last time I've been feeling this shit.. . This is also something I was thinking if I want to write here. But I want to keep my IG as honest as possible. And show what it means to have chronic pain. The good days, and the bad ones. Spread the awareness. . . . . . #chronicpainreality #chronicpain #invisibleillness #spoonielife #farming #88dayscounting #88daysaslave #farmwork #nevergiveup #athletelife #australia #aussielife #finnishestonian #finnishgirl #pain #paingry #sickleave #smile #positive #itsoknottobeok #mentalhealth #nofilter #shower #selfienation #selflove #selfie #sisu #suomiperkele at Bundaberg, Queensland

Can't express in any words how much I miss my cat in Finland! ❤️🇫🇮 Especially during the last few days I've had this very strong homesickness (a totally new for me), which is mostly just because I miss the feeling of being home. I had that in Brisbane, but not (yet) in the hostel (this life is just so different from everything I'm used to.) . Hopefully things are getting better soon. Especially with my back.. 🙄🤷 My cat has always been natural pain remedy, so I'd love to have him by my side atm. ❤️ . . . . . #catgram #throwback #throwbackthursday #nofilter #catsofinstagram #catvsdog #cat #catoftheday #sleepy #chronicpain #spoonielife #finland_frames #finland_photolovers #finland #photography #amateurphotography #photooftheday #animalphotography #pet #igdaily #home #homesick #flareup #missthis #miau #purrfect at Veikkola, Etelä-Suomen Lääni, Finland

Day 14/88. 💥 11h again... And 2 breaks (yeah wtf indeed). . My back is in so bad condition, that I'm almost 100% sure that at some point, I'll ask from the hostel if I can change work.. Because I honestly don't know how long I'm able to handle this pain. Especially if it gets as bad as now again.. 😢 . . . . . #farming #88daysaslave #88daysfarmwork #88dayscounting #farmwork #workday #hardwork #chronicpain #spoonielife #qldtravel #aussielife #finland_photolovers #australia #queensland #australia #photography #amateurphotography #photooftheday #naturephotography #nature #naturelover #universal_photographs #work #bundaberg at Bundaberg, Queensland

You know it has been a good work day, when even your face is dirty. 🙄😂 For some reason today was an absolute killer for my back though, and for 11h (yep had long day again), I repeated to myself "just one more hour.. You can do it." but the truth is, that for so many times I nearly told our supervisor that I really can't continue. I was so close.. And honestly I feel like that day will come one day.. 🤷 But this time I did it! 🙌🏽💪🏼 I'm one day closer to my goal again. 😎 . Ps. It was day 13/88 - got my off day counted in as well, as last week we had 42h work week 😳😳 . . . . . #farming #farmwork #88daysfarmwork #88dayscounting #88daysaslave #workingholiday #farm #selfienation #selfie #nofilter #dirt #hardwork #finnishestonian #finnishgirl #athlete #chronicpain #invisibleillness #spoonielife #nopainnogain #travelingram #bundaberg #bundy #hostellife #australia #seeaustralia #qldtravel #queensland #travelgram at Bundaberg, Queensland

When you love what you're doing, it's easy to get up and keep moving. 🙌🏽 Two workouts done today - 6am and 5pm. 💯 Swipe to see my #throwback video. And read more about it below. 🙌🏽😂 . When I competed actively in hammer throw, during training season I used to have two workout in a day. Even three. Sometimes it took me forever to get ready, and get to gym or throw, even though I loved what I was doing. But something was missing, and that was the biggest reason why I had a plan to quit throwing after 2016 Finnish championships. My PR in such big competition lifted my motivation back just enough to decide trying one more time. That one more time never came as I injured my back, and basically that competition in 2016 was my last one. 💥 But for some reason, this back issue has eventually led me to have 100% motivation to get back to hammer throw. The road back is and will be difficult, and I have no idea if I can ever compete again, but I'll go day by day, and have my focus on the "one more time". I need it. Hold the hammer and throw. Even just one more time. 🙌🏽 . . . . . #gymlife #nofilter #hammerthrower #athletelife #chronicpain #spoonielife #neversaynever #nevergiveup #onemoretime #strongereveryday #aussielife #fitnessmotivation #nopainnogain #fitness #workout #motivation #mindset #determination #dedication #dreambig #finnishestonian #finnishgirl #snapfitness #snapfitnessau #selfienation #travelingram at Bundaberg, Queensland

6am morning and extra day off vibes. 🙌🏽 . . . . . #qldtravel #bundaberg #bundy #nofilter #cityview #city #architecture #history #palmtrees #streetphotography #photography #amateurphotography #smartphonephotography #naturephotography #nature #finland_photolovers #australia #spoonielife #aussielife #travelingram #travelgram #morning #mondaymood #summer #universal_photographs at Bundaberg, Queensland

Just showing my fabulous muscles I'm so proud of. 😎 In fact no, I'll write about feeling guilty of skipping workout. And see how many actually reads until the end. 👀 . My biggest workout related problem is feeling guilty if I skip workout. I know I'd need full rest days - especially now that I have long working hours at farm.. I don't know is it because I'm scared of injuring my back again, and not being able to workout for long time - and that's why doing as much as I can now. Or is it because I'm scared of losing my motivation. Or because I feel like I need to show the world, that anything is possible with chronic pain. Whatever the reason is, I know, that I need to get rid of it. And just enjoy rest days without guilt. 🙄 Anyone with similar problem? 🤔 Or ideas how to get rid of this? 😂 . . . . . #workout #muscle #muscles #aussielife #finnishestonian #finnishgirl #restday #strongereveryday #australia #chronicpain #chronicpainreality #spoonielife #fitnessmotivation #fitness #athletelife #athlete #lifestyle #passion #dreambig #neversaynever #nevergiveup #motivation #girlswholift #girlpower #focus #dedication #determination #justdoit #flyinghigh at Bundaberg, Queensland

So I thought I've gained weight, because of slipping away from my healthy eating, and stuff like that. Instead of believing weight scale (I don't even have one), I decided to take a quick pic this morning to compare. . This is not so bad in fact. I guess working at farm is good for my body as well. 🙌🏽 And I know, that the camera is slightly in different place/height, but this gives a good picture for me, that I'm still OK. 😂 Though I really try to eat healthier, but at farm work sometimes the quick snack is the best one, and only possible one to eat while having short 5min break. 🤷 . Ps. It was really awkward trying to take a quick pick in hostel bathroom.. Luckily it was 4am, so not many awake. 😂 . . . . . #transformation #lifestyle #healthylifestyle #bodypositive #bodyimage #nofilter #finnishestonian #finnishgirl #fitnessmotivation #fitness #gymrat #weightloss #weightlossjourney #weightlifting #spoonielife #chronicpain #happy #strongereveryday #neversaynever #nevergiveup #travelingram #workingholiday #farmwork #athlete #hammerthrower #martialarts #aussielife at Bundaberg, Queensland

I think the best part in this farm work, is really seeing what it takes to get the food to grocery store and finally in your mouth. It's not just happening overnight, with a little seeding, watering and giving love. It takes countless hours of hard work, hundreds of workers in different departments, days, weeks, even months. . We had 11h workday today, and even though it was hard, I was still enjoying it. 🙌🏽 Also, it was day 10/88!! 💪🏼 . . . . . #farming #farmwork #farm #workingholiday #88daysfarmwork #88daysaslave #88dayscounting #vines #vinings #photography #amateurphotography #photooftheday #naturephotography #nature #naturelover #vegetarian #spoonielife #chronicpain #saturday #workplace #workday #work #nofilter #hardwork #australia #aussielife #finland_photolovers #qldtravel #bundaberg at Bundaberg, Queensland

The weirdest thing is, that when I feel the worst, my results at the gym are only getting better. 🤷 Can't explain why it's happening, but I won't complain. 💪🏼😂 . Also, I've been eating like shit for the past week. Not happy with it, but I have absolutely no appetite at all, so I've just tried to eat something.. To be somewhat able to survive the days, work and workout.. 😌 . . . . . #workoutselfie #workout #gymlife #nofilter #strongereveryday #neversaynever #nevergiveup #chronicpain #spoonielife #athlete #girlswholift #girlpower #weightlifting #weightlossjourney #fitnessmotivation #fitness #motivation #snapfitness #selfie #selfienation #snapfitnessau #bundaberg #australia #finnishestonian #finnishgirl #morningworkout #travelingram at Bundaberg, Queensland

These early mornings when there's not many cars or people around. 🙌🏽😍 . I have off day from work, but I'm just so used to wake up at 3.30am, that when someone's alarm was ringing at that time, I couldn't get sleep anymore. 🤷 . . . . . #nofilter #bundaberg #bundy #morningwalk #morning #citylights #cityview #city #architecture #buildings #history #photography #amateurphotography #photooftheday #smartphonephotography #seeaustralia #australia #aussielife #finland_photolovers #qldtravel #travelingram #spoonielife #travelgram #travel #universal_photographs #earlybird #rainy #summer at Bundaberg, Queensland

Happy 2nd birthday back pain. You're still here, and I don't know what to think about it. Not sure if I should eat cake or hit gym even harder today. When you 1st came, I thought you'd be gone within few days. I never thought, that I'd get chronic pain. I didn't plan it - most definitely didn't want it. . That day 2 years ago changed my life. Permanently. It took me over a year to see, that I can't hope for the miracle to get rid of the pain, and stop living until it happens. I had to learn to live with the pain. The hardest, and also the best decision to make. . 💥 My pain has changed me. First to the worse, then for the better. It has made me stronger. It has connected me with the most amazing people online and F2F. Pain has shaped me and my future - changed my plans, got new ones. It has gave me a lot of stress, tears, hopeless moments. But still in the end, the pain has gave me some of the most unforgettable moments. Made me the person I am today. . ❤️ As it's also Valentine's day, I'll share some love and thank few of those (in addition to my family and closest friends), who has helped me to get through the hardest days: @thenoisymime - spoonie community as it's best! Your IG stories always puts smile on my face - and I love your cat! 😹🙌🏽😍 @michaelluyfitness - I'd never be this far without your help. Without all the motivation and inspiration! 😌 Always lifting me up, when I'm not feeling the best - thank you for being my personal trainer. 🙏🏽 @mariahjeancarew - your meal plans are just AMAZING! Helps with pain as well!! 😍 @point.balance - your advices are invaluable! ❤️ @pullankuvatus - the true warrior and inspiration! 🙌🏽 @lucyellennorma - you're amazing person, and I miss you and your hugs so much!! ❤️❤️ . . . . . #throwbackthursday #throwback #valentinesday #nofilter #hospitalglam #hospital #happybirthday #selfienation #selflove #finnishestonian #finnishgirl #spoonielife #chronicpain #strongereveryday #fitness #motivation #neversaynever #nevergiveup #athletelife #australia #aussielife #singapore #snapfitness #snapfitnessau #transformation #newme #travelingram #hope #dreambig at Bundaberg, Queensland

Early morning sun at farm. 🙌🏽 And watermelon cubes - one of the best snacks. 😍 . Day 8/88. ☀️ . . . . . #farming #farmwork #farm #sunrise #sunrise_sunsets_aroundworld #sun #nofilter #88daysfarmwork #88daysaslave #88dayscounting #workingholiday #naturephotography #naturelover #nature #photography #amateurphotography #photooftheday #watermelon #snack #spoonielife #finland_photolovers #aussielife #australia #qldtravel #bundaberg #travelingram at Bundaberg, Queensland

Day 7/88! 🔥 The work is really getting easier, I'm getting faster and time flies faster. 💪🏼 And I still really like it, still find it relaxing, even though it's still killing my back and it's hottest month at the moment. 🙌🏽😂 . Swipe to see what we actually do. And see what I mean by saying it feels glorious getting to shower after work. 🙌🏽 . . . . . #nofilter #farming #farmwork #farm #88daysfarmwork #88daysaslave #88dayscounting #australia #aussielife #naturephotography #naturelover #nature #relaxing #hardwork #workplace #workday #work #bundaberg #qldtravel #queensland #finland_photolovers #workingholiday #photography #amateurphotography #dirt #vines #sweetpotato #chronicpain #spoonielife #summer at Bundaberg, Queensland

Always energy going to gym? No, not at all. But even if I won't have, I'll still go. . I sleep max. 4h a night because of the heat, I wake up 3.30am to get to work, work at the farm in physically demanding job for 8-10h in up to +40°C weather, I get back to hostel and eat something quickly, walk 30min to gym, and do my workout, walk back the same 30min, eat dinner and get to sleep.. . ✨And I have chronic pain, and sometimes at the farm I've wanted to cry because of the pain, and felt already so many times that I just want to give up. ✨But there's dedication, there's seeing the goal I'm trying to reach, see why I'm doing it. See my gym goals as well keeps me going there at least 4 times a week. ✨ I have so many people telling me, that maybe I should slow down. What they don't see is, that I've done that so much already, that I don't want to do it anymore. . ✨ I once made myself a promise: if I ever get back to weightlifting (or training in general), I won't complain. I'll just enjoy every damn moment of the things I can do. And that's what I'm doing. 💪🏼 . What's your excuse? . . . . . #nofilter #gymlife #girlswholift #girlpower #chronicpain #chronicpainreality #spoonielife #fitnessmotivation #fitness #mondaymood #mondaymotivation #snapfitness #snapfitnessau #motivation #hammerthrower #martialarts #gymrat #neversaynever #nevergiveup #weightlifting #finnishestonian #finnishgirl #afterwork #afterinjury #nopainnogain #dedication #dreambig #australia #aussielife at Bundaberg, Queensland

Our supervisor told, that if the temperature is +30°C, it means that at farm, middle of the field, it's minimum of +38°C. 😌☀️ No wonder, that it feels so damn hot when the sun is up and there is no wind. 🤷 Makes this work physically even more demanding. . Ps. It was day 6/88. 💪🏼 . . . . . #farming #farmwork #farm #field #nofilter #88daysfarmwork #88daysaslave #88dayscounting #workingholiday #naturephotography #naturelover #nature #hardwork #workplace #workday #work #chronicpain #finland_photolovers #aussielife #australia #bundaberg #queensland #qldtravel #travelingram #travel #green #photography #amateurphotography #photooftheday #spoonielife at Bundaberg, Queensland

The city I'm calling home until May. 🙌🏽😍🇦🇺 . Reminds me so much of my hometown in Finland, especially as it looks like also this place is totally dead on Sunday's. 😂😂 With few local bars open. Just like #veikkola . . . . . #nofilter #bundaberg #bundy #naturephotography #flowers #church #cityview #cityscape #park #photography #amateurphotography #photooftheday #seeaustralia #australia #aussielife #finland_photolovers #qldtravel #88daysfarmwork #sunday #naturelover #nature #spoonielife #chronicpain #happy #streetphotography #architecture #travelingram #travelgram at Bundaberg, Queensland