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I was studying #lakshmi earlier this afternoon as part of a #goddess meditation and then happened to see all these posts just now on IG and Twitter. Right down to the red dress with golden thread, #Beyonce radiated that energy of abundance and embodies that vibe. Even taking into consideration the Lemonade era and the personal growth she shared with us through her music, I think she's a great woman to look to for channeling (perhaps unknowingly) the Lakshmi energy -- material and spiritual wealth and liberation. On a more personal note: the symbolism of Lakshmi and #Vishnu in wedding ceremonies and festivities is so beautiful. The story of #Sati/ #Parvati and #Shiva is incredibly moving. I connect with those stories for the same reason #Isis and #Osiris resonate with me as well. I blame my #Venusincancer. #hinduism #Egyptianmythology #mythology #religion #spiritualjourney #spirituality #goddessenergy #meditation #marriage #weddings #love #dedication #personalgrowth #romance #abundance

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Did a daily reading for myself today. This is the second in a row that the tower card has come up as well as some repeating themes. I'm up for seeing how and where this goes. I'm receptive. #tarot #tarotcommunity #thetower #pageofcups #aceofcups #kingofpentacles #kingofswords #radiantriderwhite #tarotlover #divinationcommunity #manifestation #aceofpentacles #tarotreversals #tenofpentacles #twoofwands #thehierophant #knightofpentacles #selfreading

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When somebody fake AF crosses paths with this #gemini in #sagittariusseason. Look, I can't help it if they seem to always be #firesigns. They burned themselves. They wanted to play with the truth. Next time, heed the warning of the Gemini who is standing there with a bottle of lighter fluid in her hand in front of you. #currentmood #narcissim #truthonly #geminisun #noliars #nochill #burnthehousedown #behumble #iseeyou #leosun #checkyourself #getreal (This is a snippit from Kanye's Flashing Lights video.)

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These are my comments on Tumblr's decision to completely eliminate "adult content" from their network. Again, as someone who considers herself a member of the BDSM lifestyle and member of "adult content tumblr", I am deeply disappointed in this new zero tolerance, zero sum strategy. This is a corporate excision, not a community decision. #tumblr #sexpositive #bdsm #sexualhealth #alternativelifestyle #termsofservice #theendoftumblr #adultcontent #freedomofexpression #Freedomofspeech #blogging #blogger #wordpress #contentcreators #respectthecontent #respectalltumblrs #lgbtq #lgbtqcommunity #microblogging #tumblrs #tumblrpost

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To my peoples who battle #anxiety and/or #depression, the most powerful #ritual (IMHO) and act of self love is bathing. At my darkest point, I had gone two almost two and a half weeks without showering. I kept my hair pinned up in the same braids. Probably only changed my pyjamas when I absolutely had to. I slept, drank water, used the toilet, and nibbled here and there. During this time I had stopped all spiritual practice, no #tarot, no #meditation, nothing. I slept and watched Netflix or played video games at my desk when my body was too sore from laying in bed so much. And then on one bright and sunny day, the Internet went out. No video games. No Netflix. No YouTube. On a lark, I picked up my tarot deck. And just as I was about to breathe on it, I stopped and ran my tongue over my teeth. You know that feeling when you haven't brushed in a while? Yea. I couldn't do that to those poor cards. Why would I want to breathe into my cards the epitome of rank depression? So I got up and brushed my teeth. And then I looked at my hands and washed them. Whilst drying my hands I looked up at myself in the mirror and it was almost like I could feel the film stagnation clinging to my face. Sorry for the visceral example, but that's what it was like. Out came the cleanser and on went a facial mask. I'm standing there with my face painted green in week old sweats and my curly hair matted into what was some seriously nasty ass braids. It took me twenty minutes to come everything out. I could've made a wig from all the shed hair. My roots were aching, not just from the braids, but from the buildup. I'm looking at those clothes and my scalp, all that oil and bacteria. That sent me over the edge. I stripped out of those clothes and got in the shower. I've said all that to say this, if all you can do is wash your hands and your face -- do it. And keep doing it. Maybe the next time you're at that sink, you'll find yourself picking up that toothbrush. And who knows, it may feel so good you shrug and take a shower cause that will eat up 20min of the day until you can sleep again. (cont'd in comments)

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Project #bookofshadows will start tomorrow! It's a 4in D-ring binder. As romantic a notion it is to have a hand bound #grimoire or the like, I have to have everything easily organized. Dividers, alphabetical, chronological, expandable -- easy to do with a binder. So foam padding will go on the outside in order for the glow in the dark skeleton bone wrap covering it to sit flush around the buckles. For added security, a pair of glow in the dark paracord bands will keep the binder shut. The little skull beads are made of #howlite. I didn't know #gemini was the #zodiac correspondence until earlier today. Rather fitting along with being a crystal that provides protection and a sense of calmness and clarity. Death has proven to be a rather frequent visitor in my life. Maybe that's why I am drawn to and comforted by images of #skulls, #calaveras, and Skeletons. I know I can always speak to and consult with loved ones who have passed, but the Day of the Dead is the holiday I treasure the most. For obvious reasons. #spiritualjourney #solitarywitch #witchcraft #dayofthedead #ancestorwork #family

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Day 01 Rewrite Your Story Tarot Challenge by @drlisarbarry. What is the story you tell about yourself and about your life? The prompt hit home. As such I felt my #oshozen #tarotdeck would be a good fit for this. A clump came out. Major Arcana #5 No-Thingness: The imagery on the card evokes a certain type of sadness within me, untapped potential. The first line in the book of interpretation for Osho Zen for this card reads: Being in the Gap can be disorienting and even scary. nothing to hold onto, no sense of direction. Not even a hint of what choices and possibilities might lie ahead. It goes on, And it was just this state of pure potential that existed before the universe was created. Something sacred is about to be born. It is vibrant with all possibilities. It is potential, absolute potential. It is unmanifest yet, but it contains all. Four of Fire - Participation: Each figure holds the right hand up in an attitude of receiving and the left handed down in an attitude of giving. An opportunity to participate with others to make contributions to creating something greater and more beautiful. Your participation will not only nourish you but will also contribute something precious to the whole. There is so much joy all around, you have just to be aware of it and to become a participant, not a spectator. Make participation your lifestyle and the whole existence become such a joy. Ten of Clouds - Rebirth (reversed): This card depicts the evolution of consciousness as it is described by Frederick Nietzsche. He speaks of the three levels of camel, lion, and child. Emerging from the camel is the lion when we realize we've been missing life. You start saying no to the demands of others. We move out of the crowd, alone and proud, roaring our truth. Finally, the child will emerge, neither acquiescent nor rebellious, but innocent and spontaneous and true to his own being. Whatever the space you're in right now, be aware that it will evolve into something new if you allow it. The mirror does nothing, it's simply reflects. Your Consciousness is only a mirror. My thoughts are in a comment bellow.

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Opening up with the reversed #aceofswords, I will wholeheartedly admit that I've been going through some murky moods and thoughts. Linking back to Part One of this reading, there are times this wave of doubt rushes into my thoughts. My #anxiety is a byproduct of being forced to compartmentalise just to survive emotionally. Learning to pull myself out of that tailspin that is already part of being a #gemini still takes a massive effort on my part. I'm returning to a more uniform #sleepschedule to combat #insomnia. I'm checking in with myself to head #bingeeating off at the pass. Less guilt and punishment. More encouragement. Tomorrow is another day. It's working. There's the #chariot though it is associated with #cancer, I connect with it so much a Gemini when looking at the two sphinxes. One major theme or skill taught by the Chariot and its symbolism is working to keep it all going in the same direction. There's that theme of duality, to not be torn apart. The Chariot is a positive card to start with: success, movement, progress, travelling, even a form of #abundance. But it does not move if it's being pulled in different directions, say one being the path of doubt and the other the path of confidence. The subsequent cards of #fiveofswords and #temperance reversed versus #thefool reversed, #sevenofwands, and #thehermit, help to flesh out the two directions the Chariot is referencing. When I look at the Five of Swords, the first thought that comes to mind is 'Does anybody really win in that scene?'. You have all the swords, now what? So what? The Temperance card isn't calling me to be radical. This is a warning that is subtly supported by cards that come up further on in the read. Don't be rash. Be careful. In general, I could take or leave the Seven of Wands' imagery. Seven is a good number (connected to the Chariot, no less), but the sentiment in that card doesn't look inviting. A saying comes to mind: It's lonely at the top. Of course, the Hermit is the Hermit. Reiteration of that careful, inwardly focused work. Going back to the Seven of Wands within the context of being between the reversed Fool and the Hermit, make sure your position is protected. Cntd

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What an interesting story these cards tell. When I first saw the #sevenofswords and the #queenofcups, I was like: take those feelings and run. But then when the #tenofwands came up, I sat back and thoughts about my writing began percolating. All the experiences I've had and the takeaways from them get filtered through my emotions when I write. For me, #writing is my method for transmuting those feelings into something more than just my experience. Something bigger. My writing isn't just about entertaining people or the product of my own therapy. It's about connection and comfort. Maybe that's rather lofty. I know I'd rather carry wands instead of swords. And I'd rather be walking toward something good than away. #nineofpentacles really reinforces the notion that this is about my creativity and the fruits of it. Change is coming with #thedeathcard, I suppose, but not in the way expected in light of the reversed #thestar. With the #judgement card, the over-arching message seems to be one of not listening to the inner voice, doubting it. Time for some #clarification, #thehangedman reversed is one of the cards I really like to see. I feel it is indicative of being connected like in the #worldcard, but without being stuck like if the Hanged Man were 'right side up'. I will happily take that #queenofwands energy. Yes, #creativity on fire. The #threeofwands further reinforces the push of creative #manifestation. The statement is ended with the #wheeloffortune. How would I summarise this? Stop doubting. Stop running away. Get it together, turn around, start walking toward my goals. Once I start manifesting, doing, the evolution will happen. It's not going to be how I wanted or expected it to be, but it will be good. When I come out the other side, I will be free, having mastered it, and now making it. The wheel will turn. That or I'm going to have a fling with a Scorpio and wind up pregnant in an unconventional relationship where I 'borrow' him for sex occasionally. #tarot #radiantriderwhite #tarotdeck #tarotreversals #selfcare #meditation #divination #tarotcommunity #divinationcommunity #rebirth #writersofinstagram #writerslife #tarotcards #tarotlover

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After he left, I slipped off to the bathroom. How I managed to make it in there before crying, I dunno. It took me 20min to get myself out. I never realised how open I become when communicating with someone like that. Two strangers who met and started talking. I feel stupid. I feel like I played myself. The moment I asked, his whole demeanour changed and I knew before he even opened his mouth. I think I said something like "take care" when he was leaving. All my concentration was focused on smiling and not crying. My purpose in being there had nothing to do with meeting a guy. He came up to me and started chatting me up. Real charismatic fiery personality. I shrugged and thought why not? My biggest concern was that he'd be grating on my nerves after a while, he's a Leo. Never saw it coming. Five hours. Five. Hours. We talked. I should've known when the compliments started. When Leos lie or want something (in my experience), they start this avalanche of flattery sorta like a twisted mirroring of the ego stroking they need. No more fire sign men. Never again. #dating #datinglife #firesign #leomen #leosun #geminisun #douchebag #cryingintheclub #idratherbesingle #romance #toxicpeople #relationships

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Since my teen years, I've struggled with #insomnia. I'm a #Gemini. Not surprising. But many years ago, I stopped dreaming. Occasionally, I might have a #nightmare or something deeply symbolic that would break through. Half a dozen in a year? But happy dreaming wasn't happening. Surprise, surprise, my #manifestation stopped as my power to visualise shut down. I recently started using this group of #crystals to help with my #anxiety and #sleeppatterns. They definitely work. I fall asleep much easier. It is a more restful sleep. And, of course, I'm starting to dream regularly. The group: #rosequartz, #amethyst, #labradorite, #fluorite, #Lapislazuli, and #malachite. But today, I've only been to #sleep for 3hrs. Had a really grotesque dream. Just out of left field. I spent most of yesterday with friends, went out for some laid back fun, came home and cuddled in bed watching Jersey shore (don't judge me, pls!). Then I get stuck in this horrible American horror story style nightmare that's like part nip/tuck, part En Vogue's whatever music video, and gross vampire porn. It was very David lynch. Horrible. Unnerving. Like I totally knew I was dreaming toward the end. It was like being immersed in a film. I really need to sleep some more, but I feel like I'm going to go right back into the dream if I shut my eyes. Perhaps later I will journal this dream. Man, was it dreadful. #dreaming #rest #sleepcycle #rem #dreamjournal #nightmares

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Crossroads. I've spent a lot of time catching up with my #scorpio friend recently. He gave me as close to an apology as I can hope to get. That's enough for me. It seems like he's opened up more in the last few days than almost the year we've known each other. I'm pleased to know he feels comfortable and safe enough to share more with me. Our brief courtship was an eye opener into my behaviour within relationships. Also now, I find being a close friend watching him date I'm recognising patterns that I'm guilty of as well in my own dating life that I need to work on. I honestly don't think I would've seen things as clearly if it weren't for him coming into my life and facilitating this, albeit unknowingly. #contrail #floridasky #relationships #scorpiosun #ariesmoon #geminisun #capricornmoon #dating #friendship #bluesky #innerwork #growingup

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November breeze through the #palmtrees. The chill in the air is the most refreshing sensation on the skin. I can't help but close my eyes and let it wash over me taking with it all my worries and stress. The smile, the happiness the breeze brings me is so hard to describe. Mid 60s and low humidity is heaven. #sunset #floridasunset #onthewater #justbreathe #airsign #gemini #aquarius #libra #gulfcoast #saltlife #Shu #Egyptianmythology #mythology #godofair

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This is a chart of all the sun signs I've dated, been in a relationship with, or have had as friends. As I confirm some birthdays, I'll probably update this in the future. #Earthsigns lead the pack with 11 people and have the second highest negative rank at 7 out 11 just behind fire signs at 4 out of 5. Looks like I have the best overall success with water signs on all levels as they rank only 1 negative out of 5. What would make this even more interesting is if I added family and colleagues/bosses. The bosses I liked (Earth) and disliked (fire) follow the same pattern. Everyone tells me that because I'm a #gemini I should try #firesigns. In my experience, the Sags I've been introduced to are some of the most toxic people while the egocentric entitled nature of the Leos in my life really gets to me. I'm open minded, but people behave the way they behave. I wish I could also look at ascendants, but I don't have access to most people's birth times. And yes, I will straight up cop to my weakness for Earthy men. Damn you stable, strong, stoic, sexy Taurean men and sarcastic Virgos. #dating #relationships #astrology #geminisun #taurussun #sagittarius #leosun #watersigns #friendships #airsigns #exes

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I just finished writing my new #psychocybernetics list for that deeply hidden part of my brain. There are ten new healthy and positive parameters on this list governing how my subconscious will respond moving forward. As part of an actual visualisation exercise, I've selected a keepsake box for this little ritual in which to place this list to reinforce it all. Unsurprisingly, the hardest one to write was the last: I am worthy. Humans are amazing. We can talk all this shit about how bad ass we are. But to say that we believe we are worthy of love, worthy of happiness, worthy of success, worthy of acceptance cuts some of us to the core. Big ups to @thequietestrevolution. #innerwork #positivity #lifechanges #lettinggo #selfconfidence #selfacceptance #selfcare #thequietestrevolution #visualization #abundance #manifestation #positivereinforcement #iamworthy

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Today I learned that homemade #cranberrysauce is insanely good on #pumpkinspice #cheesecake. #dontjudgeme. Kicked it up a notch this year by using Chinese #fivespice powder and then adding a bit extra of certain other spices. For Christmas, I might experiment with different #citrus instead of the tried and true Navel juice/zest. P. S. It smells sooooo good. #thanksgiving #holidaycooking #cranberries #tistheseason #desserts #inthekitchen #homemade #cooking #holidayseason

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Beautiful #Florida day in the 60s. Hope everybody's Friday feels breezy and sunny regardless of the actual weather around you. Xoxo. #GulfCoastLife #gulfcoast #floridaweather #easybreezy #sunnyday #hellofall #happyvibes #palmtrees #waterfront #onthewater

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